week one

just finished midterms. tomorrow scott comes to celebrate. i can not wait. this week has been really full and fun. went shopping (got a few wonderful things), studied, did the usual things...but i only talked to my honey for a few minutes a day (half an hour tops). and today none. i texted him to tell him that one week was done, and boy, was i happy.. no answer. then i called early (the time zone is a killer). no answer. i hope he is ok. he always calls at least to tell me good night or he had a good day. i know i have no reason to worry, but i do. he is thousands of miles away from me. THOUSANDS. that is hard for me.

i've set a few rules for myself since he has gone:
don't go to sleep until i am really tired. i get a lot more done, and the bed is not so lonely when i fall into it.
don't cry while i'm still on the phone. wait until i hang up. then only for three minutes. get it all out. then keep going. do what ever and power through.
no super depressing songs or news or movies.
stay busy.
more will probably come. this is only week one.

on a new tangent, i saw young at heart. it is a documentary about old people who are in a chorus in north hampton and tour the world singing everything from forever young to sonic youth. it was funny and heart warming. i just loved it. put it on your queue. it won't disappoint. i kept looking for elizabeth, shea's mom/hott mama and gamera's neighbor. she loves those sorts of things. i looked for her in the audience, not the chorus; don't get the wrong ideas.
claudia is good about making me eat dinner at the house. she made a great lentil thing with leeks and arugula and blue cheese and salad dressing. sounds weird, but it was so nice i had it twice--leftovers for lunch. that never happens. her life has also gotten golden. she had her review at work on tuesday. she was sort of nervous because those reviews never go well there. people dread them. but she had hers and got a raise and she is now full time. 40 hours. i am so happy for her. she will have great news for her family when she goes home to the wedding this weekend.
tomorrow scott, forrest, melissa and andy and i are going to suppenkuche (soup*in*coo'*kuh) where we have a reservation at 8:30 to drink beer out of boots. that is pretty much our new obsession. last year it was cynar, artichoke liquor. this year, publically drinking out of boots. this place is special--two sizes of boots. sweet. should be a night to remember (or not). no girlfriend of scott's, so it'll be just like old times. scotty and cortney will hit the town like crazy drunkards when dustin's away. oh boy.
wish me strength in many forms. missing my honey, no hangovers...it is a long weekend. i gotta get ready. :)

man

i have some good friends. since dustin left, i have been soooo busy. all thanks to some wonderful people. wednesday night, my friend, natalie, took me to a seminar where i learned that the only way to detox your body is to buy their special supplements. it took 2 hours to get to that. and thank goodness for my research class--the studies they used were not only old, but not well tested and i knew it. so i didn't buy their crap. yesterday, claudia and i went for pedicures. she got gold toes (first place) i got bronze (third place). we look good. we came home, dealt with the ant problem that was out of control, cooked dinner and watched LA Inc. today i am going into the city with melissa to go shopping. i am dressed up and ate my breakfast. while i was eating, i got to talk to little quinn about all her wedding stuff. it was nice. all in all, i know i will make this. i just don't have to like it. i haven't really talked to dust since he left. and that makes me a little sad, but i know what he is doing and that he is good. if you see him before i do, tell him i love him and miss him. i will keep you posted on the goings and doings of ol' cl. until then
have a lot of fun

almost!!

tonight is my last night of studying for a little while. no tests next week. i can not wait. i have had 14 tests in the past 9 days of school. but tomorrow is the last. i am a little fried. luckily, two friends from school have agreed to get drinks with me tomorrow night. dust says he will come. i hope it will be fun. at least we can eat and then get a few adult beverages. lord knows, we earned em. i just hope we don't all dork out and bore the socks off dust.

dust got a new grill. and uses it almost every night for a month straight. he loves that thing.
we went with shea, his step dad, wesley, and forrest to eat real southern barbeque in the city. they loved it. it really smells like memphis when you go in the restaurant. it is spectacular.
this is the german restaurant we drank beer from boots at. there is another german place that has multiple sizes of boots. this one just had large and extra large.
we saw the red sox at the Colosseum. we went back a few days later and saw some other team play the a's. with that one we got to see fireworks; you know i loved that.
random graffiti around town. it is a whole wall of this. so nice to drive by.
hope you feel like you are here.

phew

only one more test on friday and thus concludes my 12 tests in a row. seven last week and four this week. it has been a long round. i made one of three-- one hundred per cents on my diversified (a type of adjusting) midterm and the second highest grade (minus one) on the microbiology lab midterm. i am a freaking genius. it is starting to warm up. it is sunny. today this girl brought me a large white pocketbook. seems, she "can't do white." good on her, and better on me. free bag. it is big and white. but i kinda like that. we went for drinks with dustin's friend, tc, today. he works with dust. he is a pretty funny guy. it was nice to be out. i know swine flu is in our area, but i am not out enough to catch it. it is sort of depressing. i mean, i need a shot at the H1N1 virus just like anybody else, right? yup. today is dustin's grandpa's birthday. he was at work during the time to call him. so that sucks, but i know we both thought about it throughout the day. that is what counts, right? nope. dust will be gone in one week and one day. yesh? so soon. i am sick of looking to that date with such dread and ready for the whole thing to just be over. so five weeks and one day until the whole thing is done, and i have my honey back. maybe that is how the count should go. sorry to take him away from y'all, but i'm the wife. i am supposed to take him away. it is my duty. :) love to the hott mama and the screamy gamera for showing me i can be married for 9 years. we'll see. get these next five weeks over with. and then on to the next seven and a bit of married yeard (do we get to count the five we were dating?) if not nine is a long way away. i think all will be fine, though. i do love that tall one.

a few pictures to make it like you are here

oh regal little lady. how i love thee.

my little man in the bed. he sits like a man sometimes. this is where i study so he keeps the bed warm for me. pretty cute, eh.

the boys are beat. see my arm and papers. proof i study. all they do is sleep. but the tall one says the boy kitty doesn't like him. i think this photo shows differently.

we go out right. flowers, feathers, fake eyelashes. we look good. people always stop us on the bart to tell us how amazing we look. that may be a little exaggerated, but i believe that is what they mean.

really--5months

ok. if you don't check this thing, you won't know i am back. five months this thing says it has been. so i hope for your sake that my readership is down. i have been taking classes dust can't even pronounce. and most recently, i have only made a's. that is right neuromuscular physiology, microbiology, biochemistry and adjusting classes (that is right i adjust actual members of my class--and they like it)! i take my research midterm tomorrow. i have been studying all quarter and feel pretty good about it. we'll see. second time is a charm, right. this quarter is my favorite so far. i hope it just keeps getting better. school is fun, and i am learning tons that i think will be helpful in my future life. i have only like 12 classes this quarter. two less than last quarter. that makes it so good.
in 10 days dust leaves for the farm for a month. it took me a LONG time to realize that he wasn't leaving me. i was not so pumped on him going. but i am trying to realize that he needs to do this to confirm that he wants to be a farmer for eternity. he gave me that oportunity, i owe it to him. i just have never been away from him for more than two weeks since the day we met. and it was a horrible two weeks. he is my best friend, and my honey. and we don't do so well on the phone. so we'll see how it goes. i am trying to stay big about this. but i don't know how long into the month i will last. i may demand him home sooner than i care to admit.
but i do have things planned while he is away. the week after he leaves, our old roommate scott is coming to visit me. that will be fun. also claudia will be gone that weekend, so it will be cortney and scotty time. then for the two weeks after he leaves i will do a fast (the master cleanse). some people at my school have done it, and they just rave about the results. i fugure at worst, i don't have to cook for myself (i dread that almost more than sleeping alone for a month), and maybe i am healthier. or i eat the most delicious meal ( aren't they all the most delicious meals when you get done fasting?). i will catch up on girly movies that dust would never want to see, and keep the grades up. he gets back my last day of finals. then we are going to go to portland to eat all the ymmy food there. better for fasting, right. earn the feasts. and then i have volunteered with my friend, teja, to be the cake makers/ photogs for my friend, sandy's wedding. so we will make a cake and snap some shots of some lovely ladies getting married. that is june 20th (my parent's anniversary). then on the 21st (father's day), i get to go to arkansas. i have not been to arkansas in the summer since---geez, 2002. i am so excited. my dad has agreed to sit in the hot tub with me everynight while we drink fancy mixed drinks and eat ice cream. (and you guys were worried about me...) i got it good. then i will have one more week off. sort of with dust but he will be working by then. but still he will at least be home, and i can snuggle a tall one.
i think that is the preview of what is yet to come. i will try to put what has passed on here, but i might just bore you all. who knows if you even check this anymore. we'll see.
love you all